BBC Radio Podcasts from Goodbye to All This
12. Moving
He’s still here all the time. Yet he’s not. And a diary has more in it than expected
11. The shoe
“She hates me going into her room”. A pink, strappy, high-heeled shoe causes a big row
10. Appointment
The washing machine breaks. The bills are mounting. Sophie almost electrocutes herself
9. Something new
“You’ll never find anyone if you’re not online.” Sophie is ready to start dating again
8. Going under
“Mama, I can’t get to you!” There’s unexpected danger on a family holiday
7. Port in the storm
“His death is nothing like the worst thing. The worst thing is now”
6. The funeral
Love, flashes of anger and remembering funny things
5. The crowded goodbye
“He was covered in flowers and looked so peaceful."
4. Crashing waves
“I’m sorry it’s not better news.” A hospital appointment feels like a polite break-up
3. Family portrait
“Hold on, we think. Hold on.” A photo and a moment captured, before it all begins
2. The secret
“Of course you’re crying. You’re very, very frightened.” And now nobody must know
1. A shadow
“He blows a kiss and I see it - exhaustion in his eyes. How didn’t I notice it before?”
Prologue
“I don’t dream about him for weeks. And then, there he is, woven into my sleep.”